I am Boomer.

 I am a boomer. I wasn't coddled. I played outside. I got a job early in life and I have always worked for my money! I was born a white male to a well off military family. I have never been called n*gger. I have never been called f*ggot. I have never had my physical or mental safety threatened because of things entirely beyond my control. I made good choices. I worked hard. I was never doubted in my intelligence. I got every job I applied for. I have never been laid off. I grew up with good schools that I was always allowed to attend. I have always been welcomed everywhere. I applied to a great university and I got in. I am nuerotypical. I have no anxiety, depression, autism, or special educational needs. I am able bodied. Kids these days need to buck up! My friend committed suicide after high school. I forget about him and don't dwell on his untreated anxiety. All these so called mental health needs are just kids these days wanting to be coddled. I have never felt like an outcast. 

I am a white male boomer. I assume my luck and blessings are strictly attributed to my hard work. If others worked as hard as me they would have the same things as me. I know that some people have been denied things because of their race. I acknowledge the plight of others, but it doesn't impact me so I refuse to dwell on it. It's an unfortunate thing that happened. I say blanket statements like "well we can't be all things for all people" which is true. But I say it so I can be many things just for myself. I am deeply selfish. I will never admit it. My generation is deeply selfish. I have an inflated sense of ego because I did drugs but did not succumb to them, I slept around but had no children out of wedlock, I broke laws but was never prosecuted, I do not attribute this to luck, I attribute it to myself.

 I will thank God for all my blessings while simultanously praising myself for all I have done on my own. I have pulled myself up by my bootstraps, but my bootstraps were never down. I was born on the mountain peak with my boots laced up. I can look down on those around me. I love the status quo because the status quo is me. I am a white male boomer and nothing has ever been stacked against me. I revolt at the thought of letting anyone up next to me. It feels like being pushed from my peak that I have happily occupied my whole life. But it is not a mountain peak I rest on, it is a ridgeline and I don't want to share.

I will forever praise myself, enjoy my spoils, and be enough of a Christain that I can wait for heaven for things to be made equitable instead of making any Christ like gestures on earth. My taxes are enough, my tithing is enough, why do I need to do any more? I am told to give up myself but I would rather focus on Jesus stating their will always be the poor. I have made that a goal rather than a proclaimation. Reparationist need to let it go. Native Americans can't get their land back. What else do they want. We can't fix the past, you need to just deal with it. I was born white, I got advantages for nothing but skin color. I know statistics say my skin color and gender got me things I did not earn. I do not see the irony.  Those people would just waste their money if they got it, they like fancy clothes and cars. I don't want to be taxed more for their social programs. I want to spend my money on things I want. I don't see the irony. People must stop dwelling in the past. Move on. The statues have been up for decades so why move them. I do not see the irony. If I admit we can do better than means I have to change. And if I have to change it means I have to reflect on myself. I will not be made to feel badly about myself. I am a good person and the world was made for me.